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Jerry, an Addict

This is a short story about Jerry, a person with a co-occurring disorder meaning substance abuse with a mental disability.  Did the mental disability cause the substance abuse or did the substance abuse result in the mental disability?  We will never know…  Here is a history of Jerry:

Jerry began drinking constantly shortly after he had what the doctors back then termed, “a break with reality”.  He had lived alone with his mother who drank all day and Jerry would buy her the alcohol.

It wasn’t long before Jerry began drinking himself, all day every day.  He would sit in the apartment with his mother, drinking and chain-smoking, talking to invisible people while his mother slept.

As the years passed, Jerry who was now in his late teens began losing his tenuous grasp of reality and with it went any social skills including self-care skills.

Food rotted in the refrigerator, neither mother nor son ever washed and soon it became too much for Jerry to travel to the bathroom in the middle of the night when the urge hit – the corner of the room now sufficed.

His mother’s social security kept them both in booze and Jerry drank and smoked every waking minute.  When rent was not being paid the landlord stepped in followed by state authorities which landed Jerry in a residential setting for the mentally disturbed and his mother in a convalesent home.

Jerry had no problem with this at all until he discovered that he would not be drinking anymore…

A nasty detox was followed by some heavy duty medications and Jerry has been sober for quite a few years now, more or less.  His last remaining vice is smoking, but his cigarettes are held by staff and apportioned to him at no more than 2 per hour.

Jerry is physically clean and has been through self help training to educate him in his ADL’s (activities of daily living).  Even Jerry’s money, the disability he gets each month, is held by staff.

But Jerry still saves his pennies by not returning all the change for a bought item and conveniently losing the receipt.  When he has enough pennies he hightails it to the bar up the street to down a few quick beers.

Fortunately, Jerry’s case manager suspects when this will happen and usually catches and stops him going into the bar before he can buy a drink.

Jerry’s life is now smoking and thinking about drinking… Fortunately his meds are designed to reduce his cravings for alcohol.

Jerry will eventually attend an AA group, is going to individual counseling and will hopefully venture out on his own and in better control of himself someday…  He is working on it…

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More Montana Meth Project

I like The Montana Meth Project and its campaign so much I decided to include more posters.

Once again I need to post a warning about the graphic and violent content in these posters.  They aim to shock and that they do…hopefully enough to stop any half way interested person from from trying methamphetamine just once and destroying their life.

And, these posters are freely copyable for personal use…

methamphetamine awareness

methamphetamine awareness

methamphetamine awareness

methamphetamine awareness

methamphetamine awareness

methamphetamine awareness

Montana Meth Project

The Montana Meth Project is a large scale prevention program focusing on reducing first time meth users. It is known for its disturbing videos and posters and usually posts warnings about the disturbing and graphic nature of its ads. But it is effective in its goal to substantially reduce first time methamphetamine user.

Here are a couple of the project’s posters and videos; all are free to copy and reuse for personal use and I must warn you about the graphic nature of these ads and videos:

The meth bathroom

meth mouth and methamphetamine

Polydrug Use

Len is addicted to heroin.  When he wakes up in the morning Len is starting to experience withdrawal symptoms so he shoots up some heroin to relax.  He gets his syringes from a diabetic neighbor.

By early afternoon, Len needs a pickup because the heroin has calmed him way down so he takes some speed and rounds it off with some pot he smokes in his bong.

Night comes and Len is bored.  He is starting to come down from the multi-drugs he has taken and irritability is setting in.  He decides a speedball is in order so he shoots up a cocaine and heroin mixture.  When it is time for bed he crashes with a couple Klonopin to start the process all over again while he has money…

This scenario is pretty common among the substance abusers that I deal with.  Hiding from life is the way to enjoy life…

Sometimes the speedball results in a trip to the emergency room because no one really knows which of the 2 drugs will kick in first.  Sometimes Oxycontin is mixed with other drugs to simulate a heroin high or methadone is mixed with Klonopin.

The cycle of using a drug to feel good then using another drug to come down from the first drug is called morphing.  Sometimes heroin users will become too tolerant to heroin so switch to another similar drug for a while to allow their bodies to lose the high tolerance to heroin.  Then they go back on heroin.  This process is called cycling.

Or after years of heroin use a person may become sick of the lifestyle and switch to another drug for a few years until medical complications force them to switch back to heroin again.  This is called sequentialing.

The sad part is that this pursuit of drugs, no matter what it is called, goes on for years.  It is a waste of life.

Hopelessly Addicted

As I sit here writing this, I realize I spend an inordinate amount of time on the Internet.  Am I addicted to the websites and blogs I maintain?

Maybe I’m addicted to the massive MMORPG’s (massively multiplayer on-line role playing game) that I play or have played.  I finished playing ‘Eve Online’ and currently I’m playing ‘Anarchy Online’ while waiting patiently for StarTrekOnline.com to launch it’s game so I can jump in and cruise the galaxy as an Andorian.

Maybe I’m addicted to work…spending 40 hours a week in the pursuit of 1 activity cannot be healthy… and I’m positively reinforced to keep working by being paid a salary and negatively reinforced to keep working for fear of losing what I have.

I maintain 4 websites including this one and it takes up a lot of my free time.  Is it addiction or love?  Speaking of love, I’ve been married to the same person for 27 years…love, habit, addiction?

When I think of all the time I spend in the pursuit of food, whether shopping, preparing or eating, it’s downright scary.  I generally eat more than needed to survive, much more in fact.  Compulsion, food abuse or addiction?  Maybe a little of all 3.

Seriously though, compulsion to perform a behavior over and over is certainly an element of addiction.  And the amount of time spent on an activity can make the difference between a healthy pursuit of something and an unhealthy pursuit.

But the one big difference between substance abuse and addiction is whether the pursuit of the ‘addiction’ is seriously and negatively affecting your life and you are still pursuing the addiction in spite of this…

The Marijuana Witchhunt

Is marijuana as bad as opponents report?  Does it lead to addiction and brain damage?  Is it a gateway drug to heroin and meth?

Opponents will say that most heroin users began their drug careers by smoking marijuana… Well most heroin users drank milk when they were small – maybe milk led to heroin abuse.

It’s easy to twist facts and statistics to say what you want them to say.  So is marijuana the ‘demon’ it is purported to be?  Some still think so…

Marijuana was a part of many commercial medicines in the 19th century and smoking marijuana was not ever really noticed until around 1910 in the USA, that is.  It started in Texas and slowly spread west.

It’s rise to infamy began as an anti-marijuana campaign by the Hearst’s in the 1930’s.  William Randolph Hearst made the word ‘marijuana’ famous in an anti-immigration campaign.  He made the word sound foreign and distressing and linked it’s use with the Mexican immigrants hoping to lead the battle against immigration.

And when Prohibition soon ended the federal drug regulatory people were basically out of a job so a new drug ‘demon’ was needed and marijuana was now in the news so was a good target.

Marijuana use was linked to rape and scandalous behavior and Harry Anslinger of the federal drug regulatory commission was quoted as saying, “If the hideous monster Frankenstein came face to face with the monster marijuana, he would die of fright”.

Soon 38 states added marijuana to their list of ‘most dangerous drugs’ and in 1937, the Marijuana Tax Act banned the growing and use Cannabis Sativa – despite it’s use as a medicine for the past 5000 years.

Let’s not forget that marijuana plants contain hemp which was used to make rope and paper.  All of a sudden all the hemp suppliers who grew marijuana had to stop growing it…

Soon after, World War II started and the ban against growing it was temporarily lifted due to a demand by the military (for rope, not marijuana).

Alcoholics Anonymous Step 6

“We’re entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.”

All character defects have been honestly faced so now it is time to accept these character defects for what they are…

Anticholinergic Psychedelics

Anticholinergic psychedelics include such substances as belladonna, henbane, mandrake, datura and jimson weed and have been used for thousands of years in religious rituals, magic ceremonies and witchcraft.

jimson weedThe active ingredients are scopolamine, hyoscyamine and atropine which are basically poisons.  In low doses they act as a diuretic, sedative and even a beauty enhancer.

Belladonna means ‘beautiful woman’ in Latin and was used by Egyptian and Roman woman to dilate the pupils making their eyes appear more beautiful as they saw it.

In large enough doses they will cause delirium and hallucinations resulting in a separation from reality, raise the body temperature and speed up the heart.

Jimson weed, pictured above, grows naturally in much of the USA.  Tea is made from the leaves or they are smoked to produce jerky movements, tachycardia and severe hallucinations that can last for days.

Once tried, few ever try jimson weed again because it is seen as a horrible experience.

An Addiction

An addiction is a deadly compulsion.  Is it genetic or learned?  Probably a bit of both.  It is also a state of mind.deadly habit

It’s not one specific destructive habit; it’s a behavior resulting in one of many destructive habits to change how you feel now rather than solving a problem for the long term.

The overwhelming majority of addicts are not limited to only one addiction.  Marijuana addicts usually smoke, cocaine addicts usually have an alcohol problem…

The same goes for the behavioral addictions like sex addiction, gambling, eating disorders.  Many people with a behavioral addiction also have a substance addiction too.

Therapy goes after the root of compulsive behavior which could be literally anything and to do this all aspects of a person’s life must be examined in therapy.

Just a Link in a Chain

I spoke to Tom at group on Thursday afternoon.  He was in a melancholy mood, reminiscing about his estranged family and how chasing that heroin high had ruined his life.

But there was progress…he seemed to have reached a decision and after careful prodding I realized he was going to invite his family to his apartment for a meal and a night of mending broken bridges.

Tom had been clean for over a year and viewed this as a positive but frightening step in his life but was determined to pull it off.

Friday was our ’social’ day where a movie replaced our group session.  Tom wanted to speak to me and mentioned that he had called his family one by one last night and most agreed to come over for a meal to see him.

I think Tom was more shocked by their response than he was willing to admit but decided to prepare for the event by grocery shopping tomorrow.  I supported his decision the best I could and made sure he knew he could call me for support if he wanted…

When I came to work Monday I noticed that Tom was not attending our group as usual.  Later in the day I received a phone call telling me that Tom was dead.

Tom had OD’d on heroin during the weekend and was pronounced ‘brain dead’.  The same family that was coming to his apartment to see him had to make the decision to pull the plug…

This is a true story, by the way.

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